it doez matter

Ok I'm like home now I mean ma province, well did a bit of this n dat today I love the kzn atmosphere and how stress free people are. So I met a guy by chance, I know what u thinkin(oh her with men issues) anyway da argument btn me n him waz the fact where ppl met, matters in a long run! Dat was ma thinkin or atleast is, to me its plain and simple I don't trust that a person you meet @ these social gatherings can be called yo own at the end! Why? Coz I think that some men think it is loose for a women to be pickd up after the partyin,it says a lot about yo reputation. So he says to me ( I must'nt crusify him bcoz of where we met) well knowing me. I ddnt buy it he was not hapy az any man wuld after being turned down and the story goes on...... For some od rzn I ended up at an area by his so I'm tryn to call him excited by the fact..... Guess what? The brother can't speak no more! My guess is the point of it all was the same point! I almost fell for a trap coz on my mind the thought of doing things by the book gave me the same results..... I wanted to br8ke the rules, it turned out my instincts served me well as always! bekuyiskelem konke pitty!

Some Strange Thing seem to be happening to me!

You see i do dwell into patterns.........

So i received a phonecall when i first had a cellphone in 2003, that individual said he was from Secunda...well i didn't know where Secunda was back in the days even today i have never been there..

Anyway what i'm trying to say is whenever i'm dialing the wrong number(by mistake ofcause) when i'm in Gauteng, it turns to be owned by some Sotho/Tswana/Venda/Sangan person. but if i dial a wrong number well ye by mistake and i'm in KZN someone frm Ntuzuma or pinetown or Eskhawin would answer the call...and ja i think this is strange.....

Today i'm at work trying to call Slie in Durban some Tswana speakin person answered the call and i almost went insane coz already i have noticed this pattern in my experience...Is it Daja Vu or am i Delusional? And what if it happens again? will you say that i'm paranoid?

lol JUST A THOUGHT!

"Life Goes On"

[Chorus: repeat 2X]

.

How many brothas fell victim to tha streetz
Rest in peace young nigga, there's a Heaven for a 'G'
be a lie, If I told ya that I never thought of death
my niggas, we tha last ones left
but life goes on.....

[Verse One:]

As I bail through tha empty halls
breath stinkin'
in my jaws
ring, ring, ring
quiet y'all
incoming call
plus this my homie from high school
he's getting bye
It's time to bury another brotha nobody cry
life as a baller
alchol and booty calls
we usta do them as adolecents
do you recall?
raised as G's
loc'ed out and blazed the weed
get on tha roof
let's get smoked out
and blaze with me
2 in tha morning
and we still high assed out
screamin' 'thug till I die'
before I passed out
but now that your gone
i'm in tha zone
thinkin'
'I don't wanna die all alone'
but now ya gone
and all I got left are stinkin' memories
I love them niggas to death
i'm drinkin' Hennessy
while tryin' ta make it last
I drank a 5th for that ass
when you passed....
cause life goes on

[Chorus]

[Verse Two:]

Yeah nigga
I got tha word as hell
ya blew trial and tha judge gave you
25 with an L
time to prepare to do fed time
won't see parole
imagine life as a convict
that's getten' old
plus with tha drama
we're lookin out for your babies mama
taken risks, while keepin' cheap tricks from gettin on her...
life in tha hood...
is all good for nobody
remember gamin' on dumb hoties at chill parties
Me and you
No true a two
while scheming on hits
and gettin tricks
that maybe we can slide into
but now you burried
rest nigga
cause I ain't worried
eyes bluried
sayin' goodbye at the cemetary
tho' memories fade
I got your name tated on my arm
so we both ball till' my dying days
before I say goodbye
Kato and Mental rest in peace
Thug till I die

[Chorus]

[Verse Three:]

Bury me smilin'
with G's in my pocket
have a party at my funeral
let every rapper rock it
let tha hoes that I usta know
from way before
kiss me from my head to my toe
give me a paper and a pen
so I can write about my life of sin
a couple bottles of Gin
incase I don't get in
tell all my people i'm a Ridah
nobody cries when we die
we outlaws
let me ride
until I get free
I live my life in tha fast lane
got police chasen me
to my niggas from old blocks
from old crews
niggas that guided me through
back in tha old school
pour out some liquor
have a toast for tha homies
see we both gotta die
but ya chose to go before me
and brothas miss ya while your gone
you left your nigga on his own
how long we mourn
life goes on...

[Chorus repeats to end]
[sung overtop repeating chorus]

Life goes on homie
gone on, cause they passed away
Niggas doin' life
Niggas doin' 50 and 60 years and shit
I feel ya nigga, trust me
I feel ya
You know what I mean
last year
we poured out liquor for ya
this year nigga, life goes on
we're gonna clock now
get money
evade bitches
evade tricks
give players plenty space
and basicaly just represent for you baby
next time you see your niggas
your gonna be on top nigga
their gonna be like,
'Goddamn, them niggas came up'
that's right baby
life goes on....
and we up out this bitch
hey Kato, Mental
y'all niggas make sure it's popin' when we get up there
don't front

Being Single

You know sometimes i sit and think......"and the point of it all?" guess what i never got an answer....

So i'm whatever age and i'm single, well i don mind coz its actually who/what i am ryt now but the question is, is it gonna end this way am i gonna die a spinster? if so that the case y do i bother myself so much...yazi! Single life is good actually great you get to do your own thing at your own pace, there are no rules and most important you can accomplish a lot when u are still stuck in the "me time" my friends call it....not that a partner pulls u back but you compensate the time u suppose to spend with a partner with keeping yourself busy 'building yourself.' Whatever that means.

The most complicated issue in being single is the "getting laid" part. Ya vele i mean a woman gotta get some but the problem begins with where...u tend to meet someone and they don fit your profile either they are big or small with huge egos and u think WTF! than u try again..the interesting part is that every single women out there was Never Single...either shz a mama's baby or the Man took off with another woman. This makes us single ladies be sceptic about who we choose so we won;t make the same mistake twice.. but that where the problem begins Comparison we seem to compare the past with the present and future which is not wrong for benchmarking progress but we kill ourselves for so doing...anyway where was i Ohh i was in a point 'the getting laid part of the story' well as single as one can be but anyone get laid at the end of the day...thats the saddest part because your sleeping partner is not yours either by agreement or circumstances..when u start being single u say to yourself 'mina i'm never gonna date a married guy' years go by you get older so as your profile in choosing.. you end up dating a married guy anyway and you don't see a problem infact u start telling people more like a sales consultant selling a life cover "married man are actualy good they don't bother you, they support u, they don't rape you in bed like the 23yr old u dated at 29...and the story goes on) forgeting that married man were never good they just became good after they got married...

All of this becomes too much so you result to abstaining and you tell yourself that no me i'm done with man...after that u became a Saved Born again christian and u start critising everyone who isn't...Yini...no secret Sister You're horny period!

you see me I like being single the only part i don't like about it is the Loneliness'the me time' sometime uyamdinga nje umuntu ozokcomfort and tell u things...(though lying to you) but the lies make u happy...i have no problems with a man not being faithfull ukuty nje the man thats gona be mine's gotta be educated,support me, and Hiv negative is it too much to ask?

My black brothers and sisters you see, i know one thing and one thing only,there is no manual on how to live life and at the end of it all..Death comes along. So there are things you will die without achieving because they were beyond your control your whole life..You see buying a Private Jet is far better than getting a man. As broke as i am but i can promise you one thing today that i know i'm certain of buying a Private Jet for sure but getting married, having life partner or whatever that you call it that is not guranteed..Asphilen bafwe2..sibe grand....MAN DOES NOT LIVE ON BREAD ALONE! chaw!

CleanSl8te

Like i said on my fb wall today - "i guess its time to grow" that can means anything for anyone anywhere. for me Tso it means moving forward, with new ideas and things to share. Sometimes i felt like comments on FB were overrated. It meant that if u commented on contravetial issues u were displaying part of your experience and that represent your thinking capacity....never the less this time i want to tell my thought in broader content....maybe one or two ppl would understand.

Today i'm a step closer to my dream.....and this is my first step!